So second day on Paroxetine. Thought I would take half a tablet instead of whole because of being sick yesterday. Good news is that I wasn't sick today but still really anxious all day so that
I did not eat much.
Strange thing is that before, I always got anxious when going away from home but at home always felt happy and safe and anxiety free. Then, these last few weeks started to get anxious at home. Now, like today, feel more anxious in my house then out!!! So keep driving away from home to feel better. The reason I think is because I am anxious all the time so when I am away from home, I can think 'I feel bad but can go home to get better' but when at home there is no escape route, which makes me feel worse.
Therefore, escape routes are not good. They may work in the short run, but then they will sometimes stop working and will only make anxiety worse. So when you have thoughts such as 'can go into car to escape' say 'no, escaping won't help anything... I will let the anxiety come... what is the worst that can happen?! I can't die or go crazy so let it happen' and you will find, because you aren't running away from the thoughts and feelings, your anxiety will get better!!!
Next step for me is, to listen to my own advice.
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